today is 1st june.

it had been 100days ever since my auntie pass away.

cant go pay respect due to my work.

will go some other day with my mum.

well..

its oso been 100days ever since i last contacted them.

are they missing me?

did they go out without me?

i dunno.

i totally got no news abt them.

i do miss them.

i really miss those days.

but now..

everything seem like gone already.

i really dont wish to break this friendship.

but even if till now they all still blame me for not attending the dinner.

im not going to say sorry.

coz no matter wat happen.

kinship is always much more impt than friendship.

i had lost a auntie tat im not able to see her for the rest of my life.

how u expect me to enjoy myself aft the funeral during the dinner?

i will feel guilty.

and the fact is im not suppose to go for any celebration aft a funeral.

does u all understand?

wat u all will do if u are in my shoes?

hais.

on the other hand.

i still rmb i had organised a gathering dinner.

ended up im the organiser who cant attend the gathering.

at least u all bother to give me a 'caring call'.

to ask me 'hey how are u? are u ok?'

i wont forget tat call.

i was so touched by u all.

i did cried at tat point of time.

jies thank you for understanding.

(:

ytd went to xiu's 21st bdae celebration.

i really enjoyed truely thoroughly with my girls.

actually b4 tat when i met iris n lu at tamp.

i felt abit sick.

sorethroat and flu.

full of phlegm at my nose and throat.

but when we all reached the location.

think the atmosphere made me overcome my illness ba.

i was lethagic but ended up loud and energetic.

lols.

the usual my lor.

whole night taking photos.

talking craps.

haa.

at the end of the day.

im tired.

lols.

i loviee u girls ("v")

=DD

hmm well..

can any girls stand ur bf contacting his ex gf behind ur back?

i cant.

i dont mean he cant contact.

he can do it.

at least let me noe lah.

is tat unreasonable?

but y must he do it behind my back?

i felt so damn betrayed.

if im not busybody enough.

he is going to hide it from me forever.

i asked him and tats wat he told me.

so am i consider lucky to be busybody?

im so afraid tat he will turn back.

but i believe in him tat he wont.

on the other hand.

my fear of believing in guys came back.

if he can do this behind my back.

he can do other things behind my back too.

but i believe in him tat he wont do tat to me.

im just over sensative ba.

u teared infront of me.

perhaps ur tears melted my heart.

makes me believe u.

dear i forgive u coz i noe u wont leave me.

i noe u love me truely.

am i right my dear boy?

-_-?

arghhh!

dunno its true or im just sensative.

it seem like tat faizal wana sabo me at work.

if wana sabo me.

pls go do ur homework carefully b4 pinpointing my mistake.

ok?!

i just hate to work the same shift as him!!!